could you hear me?

Friday, March 25, 2005

people..me..

hmm.. i guess these few days were kinda ok lah.. guess i was feeling kinda positive.. put aside most of my negative thoughts for the time i were in school. guess it helps yea.. oh. and thank you sarah. i know u're trying. =) hahaz.. u promised right.. right right.. not that i'm threatening u or anything. hahaz.

hmm.. lemme vent my anger here..

ok.. i'm pissed.. probably more like wanna be pissed but cannot be pissed. this kinda feelings sux. sux to be a good person all the time.. sux to accomodate everyone at one time. sux not to be able to express my frustration. sux to be me..

haiz. why? why muz i be such a goody goody good person. i cannot even vent my anger in public. hate it when pple give me the "whoa.. you can get angry also huh?" kinda look.

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i dun think anyone will wanna see the violent side of me..

"Beware the fury of a patient man."

not that i say i'm very patient. average i guess. but do not overestimate my patience..

did i portray myself as someone who is easily pushed over? someone who juz do your bidding whenever you call? -_-

thanks sarah and shallin for noticing my hints.. hahahaz.. haiz.. thank ya lots! wouldnt have survived w/o u. =D

nvm.. forget it.. back to happy thoughts..

like i say, was feeling ok for the past few days.. yah.. except for the pissing off matter.. life was kinda kind and cool. yepz.

choir started late at 3:30 the other day. =.= was slackin outside the room where some CO double bass players were practising. then suddenly i heard this high-pitch sound. i then stood up and say "trumpet!" and after some info from nad-ma, i quickly scrambled to the first floor outside the auditorium.. and then.. i walked right pass all 3 of them and stopped right after weishan. they all immediately stopped and laugh. hahahaz. damn funny lah.

then i became the joker that day. kept telling jokes and made fun of pple.. said "regiment" to yimei when i saw the scandal fam walkin up the stairs with stony expressions. laughed like crazy. then after the warming up, the scandals girls were jumping ard in the room singing the last part of scio enim. i started to make some chicken noise to yimei with the tune of the song. and this time we really laughed our heads off. reiteration of the joke to whee, nad and szemun also produced a similar burst of laughters. hahaz. right.. i'm lame.. =p

haiz. choir. sux sometimes.. esp when there's some pple ard who refuse to listen to the authorities and thinkin that they are the authorities. sux manz.. i wonder why someone would actually like them. top in the list of most hated choristers by the soccer players. >=(

heard lots of stuff abt band.. haiz. hope things goes well for them.. and no, not all pple despise bandmates. i mean, despising others only degrades themselves. why bother so much.. it only reflect how bad their personality is. band rocks.. =) i could have been a bandmate too. hahaz.. if only i didnt get conned into choir in sec school. lol!

long day today. haiz. pe. muscle still aching. hope it'll go away soon. today was kinda like sad lah. a bit pissed off.. then pe became the odd-one-out and hadta join another class team. kinda sad that i couldnt run ard with the class. but was quite ok with my team lah. and i'm still the odd-one-out in the team coz i'm the fifth person and no one to compete with me. oh wellz. was bored lah..

a bit sad lah.. esp when the topic turns to more a deathly kinda topic.. haiz.. corpse fingers. you have never seen one before, how would you know wat it looks like.. haiz.. kinda like miss him.. was thinkin abt him on the way home for a little while. and i'm actually surprise that i am still living w/o him. but after shakin off the thoughts i started laming ard with qing-jie, kim-jie and sarah with the image profiling test da-ge tested me. haha. i guess it was kinda cute lah..

right.. late ler.. think i'll go off..


"i guess no one ever knows me.."
-Rain
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