could you hear me?

Thursday, March 17, 2005

promises..

broken promises.. hmm.. actually, not really promises. more like expectations. no, that's not the right word. cant think of any. watever..

still waiting... waitin for them to be fulfilled..

i think i have lost it. the thing that i use to feel long ago.. why did this happen? izzt the anti-social game i played with myself which lead to this?

i think this is dumb. staying happy to keep me free from sickness. wth.. aye.. someone tell me, which way should i go? happy or juz be that sad self i think i always was? shucks..

"if only you could see the tears in the world you left behind.. if only you could heal my heart juz one more time..."

i wanna end this game. but i cant seem to put my mind off you..

heartaches..

tmr is a day i dun wanna look forward to. a day which i'll be once again reminded of all the painful memories i had sometime ago; the negative, sad self i had used to be; the loner-wannabe who yearns for care and concern; a loser who had lost everything. prayers at my dad's grave. fear... i think i dun dare to go there..

hope that the dinner with da-ge will do some good to me.. =T haiz..


pple ard but still all aLone... =(
Ruth-Skunk || 6:50 pm