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Tuesday, November 30, 2004

claz SL..cool.. choir..died-ed.. =P

damnz.. had been tryin to blog for a few days.. but every night i've been interrupted by smses, calls or mum's nagging. so yea.. finally settled down to finish up.

bloggin for the week. yepz. tues was cool. mornin was a bit rushed. ok, very rushed. coz didnt pack stuff. then woke up late coz slept late the night before. yea. still sleepy then blur blur liddat. hahaz. rite. grandma wasnt feelin well. mum asked her whether she wanna go hospital the nite before but she didn't want. haiz. yea.. pple called and msged and stuff. hadta find, pack & print some last minute stuff. found my dad's old film camera. too bad no batt. cannot take pics. brought my digi cam which i didnt use it. hmm. everytime when i brandish a cam, everyone juz siam. izzt me or izzt the cam? crapz.. nehmind.

so of course late lah.. but then again, if i were to wake up earlier i could have finish packin the initial neccessary stuff and gotten ready b4 the calls and smses came in. hmm. my fault i guess. nehmind. met sha at khatib. hahz. sry i'm damn late i know.. it's either im damn early or damn late. aye.. anyway, reached novena mrt stn. realised that we aint the last to arrive. eli and xl were still far away. so we waited longer..

reached renci after some waitin coz dear and sha forgot the way. hahaz. we looked as if we were queueing up for some freebies at starbucks. after some waiting, this lady i/c, alison
(is that how u spell it?), came and led the way. along the way there were some ttsh male patients and one of em made the remark "hey, would u like to give me ur hp no.?" to the girls and dear answered "ok, later i give u." hahaz. we were laughing like crazy lahz.

after some briefing from the lady, we got down to prepare the stuff. doin photo frames. nice. the guys went to wheel the elderly in. when they came in, we didnt seem to know how to start off. then valerie told me and jeanette that some ladies at the corner spoke cantonese. so we went off to help them. it was fun with them. they kept bickering. shallin joined me after a while. the lady i attended speaks mandarin. yepz. so we managed pretty well. she kept repeatin her story. hahaz. well, having a lifetime of being nagged at, think i can handle it pretty well. hahaz.

then lunch. it was ok lah. though most of em said not nice. i like the fish. very fresh. hahaz. think i like fish soup alot. eat that everytime i'm at a foodcourt. hee.

went back to slack abit. strung up the cranes. tried to whip out my cam to take pics but the pple werent in the mood. so fine lor. the girls were experimenting with the nail polish. they tried on all the colours. hahaz.. then time's up, we went to a ward to colour their nails. some of the ladies were sleeping. me and sha went to massage "the dignified lady"'s hands. i didnt realised, izzt that i massaged too hard or wat, the lady's skin turned red. then i looked over to sha's side and realised that her's were redder. hahaz..

painted the nails. the nail polish remover were really stinging. my fingers hurt like crazy. wat to do right. cannot say dun do mahz. so i juz bear with it lor. it's juz for a while anyway. after the polishing, we went back to pack up. the lady i/c spent ard half an hour talkin abt the elderly at the home. yea. nice stories. everyone were tired lahz. hahaz. i'm the last girls standing. =P the other girls were sittin down on the floor by the time she finished. hahaz. reminds me of my ex-choir teacher i/c ms lau. hahahaz.

went home. actually was supposed to go jean's house for a little "choral" practice. but stupid jc gave up on it. kept sayin he's tone deaf. then jean also gave up on him. aiyah. everything can try one mahz. nvm.. arranged to go sha's place to listen to them rehearse. then i asked eli to come to khatib to get her prezzie from me. ran to and fro to get her prezzie. she looked damn tired so dun wan to make her wait too long. hahaz. but the bear is really big. she was like "huh? why buy so big?" hahaz. nicer to hug mahz. yepz. all smilin and stuff. but she had problem tryin to run with it to catch her train. hahaz.

went home to change. found my granddad's not done with cookin dinner. ok. hadta eat before leaving the hse. think he's abit angry ler. coz everyday not at home. ok lor. then while dinner my grandma suddenly said she felt like goin hospital. ok.. my mum happened to be back home at that time too. so we packed abit for her and stuff and mum and sis brought her to ttsh. i waited till my granddad came back with the wheelchair before i left hse.

was tryin to remember exactly where sha lives at. been there 3 times i think. but my memory isn't not very good. esp after all that had happened. so was half the time using my intuition. and hoping that it's reliable. yea, i guess it is. reached her home. found that dear's CO friend, jeremy, was there too. hahaz. free chef for the hungry pple. hahaz. heard them played their instrument. actually they looked cool. hahaz. lookin at jie's violin reminds me of all the times i spent with mine when i was young. hahaz. ok.. still in touch with it. but it's too small. nvm. and found that my pitching is still there. so no prob. =)

Canon in D. loved it. hahaz. right, was crazy over it lahz. think i got it from faith. hmm.. i became their free human metronome coz sha spoilt hers. ok. at least i wouldnt be doin nothing there. after a while, they went to makan dinner. i stayed in the room. plucked jie's violin strings accordin to the score notes. ok. sounded ok lah. not very confident. hahaz. heck. not me performing mahz. hmm.. gotta get another violin someday? think i'll consider continuing my violin lessons.

lookin at them, they practiced quite alot for the performance. guess the pressure is there. to think of it, they need quite an amount of courage to even wanna perform it. i mean, they volunteered, unlike the rest of us who wouldnt even care more. haiz.. after a few rehearsals, they sorta like gave up on it. qing-jie was like thinkin of stepping down, since strings couldnt really mix with woodwinds. i helped abit on the bowing coz i thought it sounded forceful and staccato on the quavers. but i think to change it now would be too much to ask of her. nvm.

we went to sha's study room to prac. played a bit. then we decided to stop. jie was also tired. talked abit bout music. listened to "zanarkland" and "ffx" midis on my phone. we played it on the violin. nice! played "eyes on me" and "right here waiting" too. hahaz. music that i love. it's so different to play song from memory and feelings and not from scores. it will sound perfect even if there are mistakes. because it is your music. like wat i told qing-jie, "if your're playin a piece of music solo, everything you do, like slowing down at one part of the music juz becoz u felt like it, wont be labelled as a mistake. it'll juz be regarded as a dynamic in the score." no one will question. they'll juz treat it as professionalism. =)

we stayed until my mum requested me to go back after numerous calls from my grandpa. qing-jie realised her mum was already waiting for her too. so we bid goodbye to sha, dear and jeremy.
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wed.. tried to go early. but sha over slept. hahaz. spent the morning tryin to contact her. and dear was quite vexed. reached there and sha took off to renci first. the attendence seemed smaller. qing-jie came too. and jas was the latest. hahaz. we set off.

started the day again. the uncle who greeted us was fierce. ok he seemed fierce. nvm.. doin cards this time. they were cool. think it's the same batch of elderly pple. time passed quickly. soon it's lunch. the girls went to eat at novena square. me, sha, dear, jean and qing-jie went to visit my grandma. haha. bring a bunch of girls ard a ward. felt funny. my grandma looked happy to see us. she nagged abit too. my mum and aunt were there too. we only stayed there for half an hour. me and qing-jie went to find the others. sha, dear and jean went back to renci to try to practise.

we walked ard the whole place for the food court. forgot it was outside. hahaz. but it was damn crowded. and i din feel like eating there. decided to buy burger back. so we trekked back again. found them practising outside coz the uncle was sleepin inside. how nice. ate a little. sha and jean came in after a while. i spotted dear walked passed outside the room. then jean suggested that she play it on the keyboard with sha. i din feel like eatin after a while. decided to play my recorder and harmo outside in the fresh air. qing-jie followed me. didnt play much lahz. then sha asked us to tell dear that they'll not play coz jean will play it on the keyboard.

i thought u promised not to cry this year? u told me so. why make urself so depressed? the sun shines after every storm. remember that the greatest glory is not winning but pickin up urself after u fell. it's not ur fault. well, the piece is hard. esp on a woodwind. nvm bout it. practice more yea! anyway, there's still alot of things waiting to be done. yepz. u still rock nevertheless!

the performance was quite ok lahz. somehow i got myself the post of the MC. crap. but since sha dun wanna do it and dear had a sore throat. fine lor. not as if i've not spoken to mass of pple liddat. hahaz. we kept singing the same songs over and over again. and jas hadta do his wushu 3 times. paiseh ah. we really have nothing else to do. yea. but he's really great. hahaz. 3 different set of punches everytime. got one point he forgot his step. hahaz. so funny. he gave us that "oops" look. but he regained his posture soon after.

when the performance was over, we wheeled the elderly back and packed up. luckily for us this time there's no debriefing. yepz.. the 2 bosses seemed relieved. then me, jas, sha, and jean offered to help dear carry her stuff back her home. hahaz. i was quite surprised that she carried all those things to the hospital. hmm. so we went to braddell and sat at the macs since the others had not eaten. we chatted a bit. then it rained. they played cards abit. we headed to dear's home when it turned to a small drizzle.

it seemed like the 2 bosses had been to each other's places a lot of times. sha was leading the way as if we were goin to her place. hahaz. neat. it was quite a distance. but it's on a single stretch of road. so not too bad lahz. "so near yet so far".. hahaz. think i used it wrongly. nvm. stayed there for a while. watched abit of the tv. showing "to mum with love" at that time. like it.

dear walked us to the mrt station. then i made my way to J8. wed u see. wed dates. walked ard but got tired so i went to the busstop to sit down. after a while i called da-ge. she sounded damn tired lahz. hahaz. after claz chalet and band. haiz. think i woke her up with the call. paiseh. aiyahz. i asked her to go back to bed. then i went home.
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thurs. choir practice for x-mas carolling. 3 hours. i sang till no voice ler. coz i blasted during the performance on wed. yea. throat was damn bad lahz. even drinkin water couldnt help. felt so busted after that. the choir attendence was small. but small grp easier to sing mahz. as in, easier to control. yepz.

went to see my grandma after choir. waited damn long for my bro lahz. in the end he asked me to go first. bought soup for her dinner. she said she coughed alot. choked by her phlegm. haiz. watched a bit of tv. my bro came. then my mum. then my aunt. after seein grandma finished her dinner and called for toilet. we left. bro tagged along for fish and co. but we didnt go there. hahaz. how sad. aunt treated us to this hongkong restaurant. the food ok only lahz.

dear called at night to discuss about the survey which is needed to be made. didnt talk much. only when she asked for ideas and stuff then i spoke a few sentences. most of the time i was juz stoning ard coz i lent my sis my laptop to play with. so nice of me right. hahaz. jk.. =x finished with 5 qns. went to bed immediately after that. too tired.
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fri. last day of claz sl. actually i'll rather there's more dayz. coz i really like to see the claz pple. ok, the girls lahz. dun really miss the guys alot anyway. hahaz. actually me and sha wanted to be early. but couldnt. sha's mum tripped on the lift door landing. ok. so i went off first. reached there and i thought i'll be the earliest. but no. saw qing-jie there. wahz. ok. we were both surprised lahz. waited for the rest to appear. this time fewer pple were ard. nvm.

started to rain on the way there. hadta run back to meet sha for the photo making. ok. got pretty drenched but dun care lahz. i like the rain anyway. realised the photos were quite ok lahz. not say very ex. lamed ard all the way back to renci.

they did the paper towel thingy. this time it's all male patients. some of them were cool. they did calligraphy on some. nice. then we played balls and mini bowling with them. the patient i attended to were very bored. xl said it seemed like he's entertaining me instead of the other way round. hey, i hafta play with him mahz, if not u'll say i'm not doin anything. =( nvm. at least it kept him busy.

they left earlier. wheeled them back to their wards again. hahaz. packed up. sha, qing-jie and val went to suntec to visit the AJE pple. the others dunno go where. jas, xl and eli stayed behind. me and dear went to eat at united square mall and then went back to pass eli her honeydew. then we went to visit my grandma. grandma keep sayin she saw things everytime she closes her eyes. haiz.. dear went to get her papers to read. so nice of her. oh.. i still owe her a drink. hmm.

afternoon at renci was juz karaoke session. so funny, wheeled them in to let them hear us sing. aiyahz. so bad.. some of them dun even wanna stay lor. but the uncle and auntie kept them in. so bad.. but maybe it's sth to them lah.. dunno. after we sang until we dun wanna sang, we wheeled them back to their rooms again. then we packed up and leave.

me and dear went to suntec to pass mel and hoongta their stuff. bought a little bit of stuff there. then we went to the esplanade. hahaz. my usual routine. =P went to the rooftop garden. i took a few pics of the place. nice. and a few shots of dear. hahaz. she kept auntie-ing ard. we went back after my mum smsed. she bought a glass bottled coke. it's quite rare yea.. took another route back to raffles place. took pics of this brown cat which auntie sarah named it "auntie sarah's cat". passed the andersen bridge took lots of photos. passed the cavenagh bridge. there's a wedding there. dear wanted me to snap a few pics of the newly wed couple. hahaz. then i took some shots of fullerton hotel. one with dear posing. heh heh. "we're like tourists," she said.
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sat. went to boonlay for the countdown booth thingy. luckily i went. coz sha had family day and were late and mq woke up late. haha. met kim on the train. wow. good timin here. hahaz. the meetin was kinda stupid lahz. sat there for abt 5 mins and we're off. we sat there discussed a little bit more then we left to meet up with sha at jurong point. ate at macs a little and discussed abt the food to sell. for abt an hour. yepz. then sha hadta go. bet her parents were angry lahz. stole their daughter from the family trip. hahaz. oops. then me and kim took the train down. she went home i think, i went to visit my grandma. bought soup for her. think she's feeling much better lahz. transferred to the normal ward. mum, bro, aunt and cousin came along. had dinner at fish and co. then we went to watch "the incredibles". so nice. i wanna watch it again. hahaz.
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sun. saw mummy cried again. she said she cries every weekend coz she always think of dad. =( nvm. she brought me and bro out to buy winter jackets for hk. went to a few places but settled down at northpoint. hahaz. then went giordano buy clothes for me. hmm.. then we came home to drop the clothes before mum and i went to visit my grandma. scared she later nag again mahz. she was feelin better. my aunt and cousin was there again. went to eat at novena's food junction. hmm. never buying from that stall again. lots of bones. and i swallowed a few. nvm..
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monday. choir. hahaz. recordin of national anthem. we sounded funny. but the teachers said it's ok. weird. then faith came for the carolling. whee and nad-ma went crazy lahz. they brought her ard the school. the carols were ok lahz. gettin familiar with them now. went to eat a really late lunch, ljs, at 4 with them. funny i didnt get gastric. but i know i was damn hungry lahz. chatted till ard 6. thought my grandma was discharged but i read this sms sent at 4++ that she wasnt still. my gosh! could have gone visiting her. damnz. went home. had a late dinner too.

major heart attack. realised that it's not heartburns. heartburns is pain in the chest. but i know that wat i had felt wasnt chest pain. it's the heart. hurts like crazy. arghz.. still got after effects. can feel the heart muscles hurting. shit. gonna see a doc. mum was scared. i told her it was common, but that one is really major. it hurts for a few minutes. arghz. thought i'll die. hahaz. cool. lemme. =x

rashes. shit. on my face. double shit. aiyahz. nvm..


right right. this is damn long. 1 whole week of stuff. nvm. realised that the events in the later days were short. tired of bloggin this post. nvm.. =P


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