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Sunday, October 10, 2004

In conclusion..

ok, to continue my blog from last night/this morning (it was 12:07 when i finished it you see), i realised that i got a bit tanner. juz a teeny weeny bit. sarah was rather exasperated as she felt that she didn't get darker. "even liru who didn't get into the water is darker", she said. well, my idea of sitting under the hot sun for an hour will work if u really wanna get dark. i tried that and got dark even though i had sun block lotion applied to all parts of my body. actually i thought that sun block wouldn't work. it's like applyin oil on meat and put it in a hot fryin pan. thought that'll make u tanner, no? heck..

aching back and arms. wat the? i didn't even swim, how did i get that? muz be the captain's ball. but it's so weird. i didn't even move ard much. ok, maybe a little. but it's as bad as havin aching arms after 100 push-ups or more after PE. crap. think it's the sun's fault. it's like really fryin the oil out of you. hahaz. juz jokin. hmm. i wonder if eli is seein this? maybe she might be tempted to try it out..

sore soles and painful ankle. so shitified by this. my soles were hurtin even when i wore slippers. think that all of my epidermis cells at my soles were skinned off. abit red now. hope it recovers soon. wanna run ard normally again. and my ankle. haiz. old wound. still hurtin now and then too, so wat the heck to it. it hurts when i'm in a cold environment. rheumatism? hope not..

went to have a hair cut juz now! woo hoo. finally! away with the long back but i kept the fringe coz i dun wanna irritate my eyes again if i get it short. now i think it looks abit like annabel's or even faith's. anything lah. not so thick now. so much cooler. =] actually cannot cut one. should be wait until after 49 days. budden my mum also cannot tolerate her's and she dun like my messed up look. hahaz. so she brought me to cut mine too. *beamin* hahaz..

Things that i still cannot do:
1) No happy affairs - any form of celebrations. ==> 1 year
2) No goin to anyone's home - heard that we'll bring bad luck. but my mum says that it's becoz the parents might not like it. wonder which one is true.. ==> 1 year
3) No movies - i dunno why. heard that actually cannot have any form of enjoyment one.. ==>1 year
4) No giving of gifts - now where did this come from? hmm.. ==> 1 year
5) Cannot buy footwears - befuddled by this too. ==> 49 days/2 more weeks
6) No haircut - but wat the heck, i've cut mine. my mum and my bro too. ==> 49 days/2 more weeks

oh fine.. pretty much quite all right besides these. at least i'm not banned from shoppin or havin fun at the beach with friends. yep. wanted so much to go to a church today. but it didn't seemed appropriate. yah. think my mum won't mind if i convert. but i'm still thinkin abt it lah. maybe? but then again, freethinkin has it's pros and cons juz like everything else. oh wellz.. see first bah.

mummy went through with my dad's workin bag in the morn. to clear it and to throw it away. she had tears in her eyes in the process. so sad lookin at that. i jerked awoke this morning. my mind was whirlin with thoughts of the event again. why liddat. i'm missing my dad again. but soon after i came in tune to the world i'm livin in. yah, not much of a hurtful feelin. i brought the bag downstairs to dump. my mum said, "lookin at the bag really makes me think of your daddy." felt so much like cryin but i didn't. i juz shook my head in response. haiz..

well, watever it is, life muz go on. guess i'm gettin stronger? or am i not? we'll see in due time..

"Like a once in a lifetime, you changed my world.."
- perplexed rain

Ruth-Skunk || 3:12 pm