could you hear me?

Thursday, December 16, 2004

it's only words..

i realised that i walked too much at the front. perhaps that's wat i'm good at? or is it juz that i want pple to look upon me? wateva that is, i realised that i'm too used to being at the head, i no longer like the backseat.

what is good? and what is bad? pple say i'm too naive. perhaps i am. i'm a thinker, definitely. i think too much. so much so that i dream. dreaming is good. i escape reality. a little too much perhaps. hahaz. i realise that my blog is like a step nearer to my inner world. it opens up one's thoughts to the world outside. all the angst and sadness. but am i really that sad? welcome to my inner world. i dun even know..

yellow represents happiness? ok. no wonder after a year of trying to associate it as my new favourite colour, i still cannot accept it. i'm still a blue/green person. perhaps a little white/black. but hey, those arent colours, they're shades. hahaz. maybe i'm getting the hang of maroon. i think deep colours are nice. but i often wear beige. i think i have 4 of those long pants.. hahaz.

it's so wrong to look at pple with coloured lens. everytime i'm outside with the crowds, i'll have this inner strings of comments in my head. criticizing pple mostly. and i realise that sometimes the way one appear to look when one is criticizing inside of them will give hints to others abt what they are thinking. it juz comes automatically. unless you're so much of a critic yourself that you're always having that 'look' on your face, criticizing or not, i have nothing to say. but ya, the best thing is never to be thinkin bad abt pple. it shows. and it's a sin i think. yea. perhaps try askin yourself the reason why they are doin wateva they did which aroused the criticisms. that should be good enough.

am i sounding naive? maybe, but i wont give up my belief of goodness in everyone so easily. there's always a little good in everyone. juz whether they wanna show it or not.

had choir juz now. i thought i'll dread it but it appears that i didnt. i still enjoy singing no matter wat. was talkin to jo when i saw her yellow mechanical pencil. then i said "yellow." she replied "dirty fellow." hahahaz. i was like pengz -_-"'..

nelson was pretty angry abt today. apparently it's the attendence problem. oh wellz. perhaps i was feeling guilty becoz i missed the whole of last week's pract. but at least i was here today. sang the concert pieces today. love em. coz they sound nice? and it's quite easy to sight-sing them all. hahaz.. and the alto tunes are quite nice too..

cant wait for carollings. yepz. i love some of the x-mas songs we are singing. some of my favourites are "joy to the world", "what child is this", "carols of the bells", "silver bells" and "have yourself a merry little christmas". hahaz. the rest maybe.. i still love them all anyway. except for those arranged until very hard to sing ones. like "deck the halls" and "we wish you a merry christmas". altos were sight-singing the whole time..

had a long long lunch with some of the altos. nad-ma, jo, szemun, chunwei and cedar choir jr zinuan. sat at bedok bk for some hours. eating and talking. mostly on the carolling session last week and the future sessions and also ghost stories of cedar and st nics. yah. then we left. went to northpoint. nad-ma accompanied me to walk ard the place until she has to leave.

had another wed date. cool. was afraid that da-ge din wanna come out coz she juz came back mahz. need lots of rest ya noe.. jet lag. sucky.. but she came out anyway. yepz. said she owed me lots of time. hahahaz. oh wellz. found that geminians' and virgoens' had wednesday as their best day for dating. hahahaz.. check out http://www.blogthings.com/gemini-love.html and http://www.blogthings.com/virgo-love.html. yepz.. =P

so we've met and stuff.. chatted lotz. and she told me bout her cali trip. hahaz.. i wanna go too? hahaz. maybe.. wait for the summer time.. went to plaza singapura. took a long time to decide wat to eat. ate kfc. hahaz. too much fastfood today. sat there and talk. then walked ard. talked more. visited all shops we think might be selling that plushie. nvm.. went into yamaha music school. looked at all the musical intruments and stuff. yea. the trumpets and other brass intruments caught her attention. hahaz. they're neat. want one? hahaz. then looked at their small collection of violin. realised that the one that we saw, the wood abit weird that one, is actually a good violin. the cutting of the neckrest is different. hmm.. i'm thinkin of sth.. hahahaz.. who knows? havent heard the sound yet.

yah.. so we spent the time walking ard. not really goin into shops to look but yea. think we talked more than visiting the shops. hahahz. right..

oh wellz.. it's almost an hour past my curfew. shucks.. think i'll go off..


"seasons may change, winter to spring..but i love you until the end of time..come what may.."
- Al

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