could you hear me?

Tuesday, December 14, 2004

my MVP valentine..

hahaz. hey, think i like that show. not becoz of sun xiezhi k. hahaz. the storyline is interesting. and my bro's on it too. ok.. decided to blog early today coz i'm afraid my mum will confiscate the lappy before i can even blog. and coz last night's post was damn short. aiyahz..

tmr got choir. is that a yay i'm hearing me scream inside myself or wat? derno. something half-hearted that is. haiz. glad that i can sing again? but i derno. the pple in there perhaps. haiz. couldnt exactly click with them i can say. i derno. perhaps it's becoz i havent got any close friends with me in choir. but then again, the pple in my choir clique are nice. someways. yepz. perhaps it's the "family" thingy goin on. but then again, they arent the kinda pple anyone would like to trifle with. somehow i lost the joy i have with them? i derno. then why do i stay on? perhaps it's coz of the sake of singing. perhaps i juz wanna fully utilise my ability as a chorister. perhaps juz because it's the only thing i can do. perhaps i juz dun dare to venture into other sectors. coz i'm a coward. perhaps..

seemed like i used the word "perhaps" alot these few days. there was this other time i used it alot too. times when i dun know who i am. haiz.

had a small chat on msn with this sec classmate of mine. the other female geminian in my class. though we dun share many good times but lots of bad ones, somehow i missed talkin to her. she's a really naive girl, too pampered and sort. and she called me naive. coz i told her i believe in the goodness of everyone. she told me to get out of this nutshell and see the world with wider eyes. hahaz. certainly she doesnt understand me. but i'm glad she welcomed me as her friend. haiz. i can say no one can exactly get along well with her. she's juz too proud and pampered in her ways. haiz. shant talk too much abt her.

i realise that geminians like to change pple's mindset alot. and they like to be different. and they talk. hahaz. socialise i mean. i derno. still finding out.

oh and one thing. yay! da-ge and sha are back! wahahaz. and i caught da-ge online when she was back home. nice to be seeing her again! yea. i missed her badly. i'm feeling happy? hahaz. shall see..

dear's still in m'sia. wonder how she's doin at camp. hmm..

anyone know where i can get a pink chansey plushie? the pokemon himself wanted it as an x-mas prezzie.. still searching. maybe hk got? hahaz. shall see. but hey. x-mas is the day i leave for hk. aiyah. muz get it before that?

"Everytime I saw you walking away from my embraces to his side. But everytime I saw you cry because of him. What else more can I do except helping you wipe your tears?" - Prince, My MVP Valentine

i love those sentences. so giving in to the girl. hahaz. haiz.

sometimes i couldnt help falling in love. and i thought i believe that as long as the person is happy, i'll be happy. but sometimes i couldnt help feeling sour inside of me. haiz. wazzup with my mind. da-ge help me. haiz. you're the only one who knows my secret. maybe my sis but i'm not sure. i didnt tell her by words. probably she felt it. and i've denied it. wat a coward i am. arghz. yes i'm different. da-ge knows. have been keeping it down. tried to be normal. haiz.

aye.. the stupid new media player. hate it.. my sis wenta download it coz "the prompt keeps popping up." arghz.. should have discuss with me whether i want it mahz. so bad. now it screwed up alot of my stuff. so shitified.. my finale notepad cant work. i'm breaking apart. arghz..

having carollings soon. choir and church. juz helping.. hahaz. cant wait? probably. hmm.. that'll mean less time to do stuff.. aye.. crap. nvm. i cant wait for another someones gathering. a full gathering. haiz. shall see lahz.

i'm irritated by my bro. nvm bout him. hahaz. he got a good progress award. wat crap. =P nvm. where's my good maintenance award? hahaz. crapz. think the crappiness is getting into me. haiz. life is so unfair? nahz.. but he's getting more smug. heck..

oh wellz. guess enough of lamenting on this post. hahaz.. there's juz too much to tell. too much to say.. right right.. i'll shuddup..


"seen alot of broken hearts go sailing by..phantom ships lost at sea and one of them is mine..raising my glass i sing a toast to the midnight sky..i wonder why the stars dun seem to guide me..."
- Al

Ruth-Skunk || 8:54 pm