could you hear me?

Friday, March 04, 2005

tired..

"No one else comes close to you. No one makes me feel the way you do.."

haiz. realised that once love is given, it cannot be taken back. like a glass of spilt water, it's not retrieveable. somehow i felt drained. drained of what i'm supposed to be feeling..

tired of not being reciprocated. or maybe i'm juz tired.

lied ytd. abt being tired. i guess qing-jie saw it thru. haiz. right. i'm sad. somehow.

juz a little "are you ok?" from you will make my day. but it doesnt seem that way anymore. seemed like we're getting more distanced. near but distanced. haiz. somehow i felt uncomfortable ard you. i dunno why. juz plain uncomfortable. but then again, there's this nice presence felt about you whenever we're together. haiz. nvm.. i shant think too much..

or rather i'm getting myself isolated from the rest. anti-social. wateva.

my mood reached rock-bottom during choir. haiz.. dun wanna say abt it. i felt like walking out of the room and cry at that point in time.. ma talked to me after that for a while. juz felt like crying. dunno wat to say to her too.

i think i'm like a cry baby now. kept crying over stuff..

i'm so sorry to all those who i had raised my voice at. haiz. i didnt mean to. i juz shouted without thinking. i guess it's my mood. really really sorry..

sorry vic, iris and sarah for not participating in last night's convo. not in the mood to talk to anyone.

didnt really do my tutorials and hw. too drained after choir. too drained after PEs. felt like having a long long sleep.

my throat is going from bad to worse. hahaz.. it's diminishing.
headache during choir. haiz.. probably it's the aircon.
muscle aching and cramping so many times.. haiz..

too sleepy to blog..


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Ruth-Skunk || 12:13 am