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Saturday, April 02, 2005

quite a terrible week..

wowz.. right one whole week w/o blogging.. lotsa things to update..

choir.. 4 straight days of choir. monday stayed back for 3 hours juz to do 1 hr plus of 3 songs for CCA carnival. slept pretty early at 12. abit irritated. tues, had morning pe. i think i overworked myself or sth. first time i din feel like eating anything. 3 blackouts in school too. saw the news on channel newsasia on the earthquake the night before. was feeling really terrible. my whole body was like in a state of rejection to everything that i did. i couldnt breathe properly and my lungs hurt like crazy as if i worked out after being sick for months. and my muscles were aching madly. couldnt walk properly without a wince of my eyes. haiz.. choir after that. learnt finished bin nam ma. was kinda proud of altos. oh, while trying to get into the hall, the gongs dropped into a crashing clang on my foot while we were making our way thru the CO members. wat a "grand" entrance huh.. damn suay..

wed was juz as bad. din have the appetite. ache was worse. and i had problem trying to sit down. it's either i plop down into the chair and hurting my butt muscle or slowly sit down and stress out my thigh muscle. sux i tell u. in the end i hurt my butt.. crap lah. did math and a bit of chem i think. for 3 periods. and went out to the benches to finish my chem for the break. the rest went for their canteen break. still wasnt walking too well. had mighty problem tryin to climb the stairs for both directions. choir, combined bin nam ma. not too bad i think. kinda enjoy more of the song now.

thurs. actually i felt like dying. really. the lungs still hurts. couldnt breathe properly. and my body's still not recovering. i dunno why. usually it will be ok after 1 day. but it seemed not to be. then my mind started to wander off to him. started crying.. more like tearing lah.. went out to do econs mcqs during break. vic came ard to "provoke" me by saying that i'm mugging. but it turned out that he had already done that chapt and he move off not wanting to disturb me. da-ge came and sat down for a few moments before i realised that she's there. i didnt notice really. and she asked me how i was and stuff. told her i felt terrible and i teared a bit.. haiz.. then she went off after staying for a while.. lunch was fine. sat in silence after that. trying to rejuvenate. and my mind's at peace. was asking qns in my head. trying to find answers. prayed a lil.. was feeling a lil better after that.. pe sux.. hanging on the bouldering wall isnt as fun as i had exactly remembered. but i guess the others had a great time trying to "get a grip". lol. and a few rounds ard block 12. i guess my prayers were answered. choir with mr kwei. luckily we didnt get thrashed after giving him a really bad combine under mark. did a bit of bin nam ma and then sunset and tsubasa. and he gave us a review of our march concert. kinda happy.. and my breathing came back online working.. waited for nad-ma and whee for their com meeting to end. nad-ma was really sleepy after that. and her forehead felt cold. was guessing that she was sick. accompanied her to buy her sock at northpoint and waiting for her bus before i left.

fri, fairly nice day. was feeling way better, though my thigh muscles were still hurting, but not as badly. had many april fools' jokes played by others. i'm so guai for today. hahaz. so unlike me right. shall blog abt the jokes another day. waited for da-ge's band sectionals to end for dinner. haiz.. heard sth abt her section.. sometimes i juz dunno why human can be so intricate. "and you wonder why," would be what sarah would say.. went to j8's food court to eat. walked ard the compound for the umpteenth time. talked abt stuff on the way.. went to the fairprice to glance ard for drinks and snacks. bought the planet cola. not very gassy. kinda like it. but it's as sweet as coca cola. eeks.. sat at the benches outside the supermarket for a long long time, snacking and chatting until 10. then we went off. met mabel at the bus stop but i didnt get the chance to say hi coz there's too many pple. went straight home after hearin that my mum was pissed.

so here i am.. juz a normal update.. yangzheng tmr. and probably i'll wake up early to have breakfast with mum again. yepz.


"can you sing with all the voices of the mountain? can you paint with all the colours of the wind?"
-Rain
Ruth-Skunk || 1:21 am