could you hear me?

Thursday, September 22, 2005

random ramblings..

have i been too caught up by my own emotions?
i think i had.
so much that i forgot my Father.
i'm beggining to lose this feeling again.
are you there Father?
guide me back to the right path.
i've turned to the devil to relieve this loneliness.
that was so wrong.
can i be forgiven?
will You forgive me?
all those talks about me loving You feels so empty now.
cause i havent been practising it.
cause i havent been thinking about You.
cause i havent been talkin to You.
why am i so caught up?
why did i do all those things that make You unhappy?
why did i hurt myself?
it's really hard to keep You in mind, Father.
and rules are meant to be broken.
it's so right.
i shouldnt, i know.
but i did.
i'm such a fool.
are You angry at me, Father?
can i still love You?

i'm so sad.
so alone.
watching more naruto only makes me cry more.
wat's all those talks about love.
i don't understand.
or maybe i understand too much.

loneliness.
it hurts so much.
the emptiness within.
Father are You here?
then i won't be so lonely.
i need Your comfort.
where are Your angels?

the rain.
are You crying with me?
did You see me cry?
cause i am crying.

the guilt.
it's stabbing me.
it's so painful.
why did i do it in the first place.
i should have find You first.
but i didn't.
i've lost to his temptation.
it hurts now.
so much.

now i know why my eyes hurt so much.
have been crying too much.
Ruth-Skunk || 12:49 pm