could you hear me?

Thursday, October 06, 2005

i see the tears

I guess I'll never get to see a second miracle huh..

Has anyone ever feel so alone that it hurts so much? I think I do. Not that my mind is playing tricks with me. I really do. It hurts deep down in my heart. Just this unknown sense of pain. Somehow, I can understand how the characters in Naruto (Naruto, Gaara, Sasuke, Haku and Kimimaro) feels. They all have the same eyes. The eyes to want to be acknowledged for something. The eyes to want to feel wanted and belonged. Why do I feel this?

泪一滴在左手凝固成为寂寞...

I know one when I see one. Someone who's as lonely. Cause we'll have the same eyes. But pride seemed to overcome her. So she covers her loneliness with a sense of superiority and wears a mask of accomplishment and happiness everywhere. But I know. And I think she knows me too. That's why I'm not afraid to talk to her. I know people yearn for company, like I do. I'll try to alleviate it. No need to dare me to do so. I just have the urge to. No matter what the consequences are, even if she refused me or if words run dry and the convo turns to a dead alley. It's really ok. As long as there's company.

I need someone to know how I feel. To be there for me. But I guess the time has not come for this to happen. Somehow, I feel that I had tried to turn people down. Cause I know it's impossible for them to stick by me all the time. I make mistakes too. Far too many I guess.

我看过你流泪 也知道你伤痕累累
请不要再戚着双眉慢慢后退 用防备将自己包围
我看过你流泪 所以我一心想去追
只期待把你的笑容全部找回 多少努力我都去所谓

Somehow I wish someone would sing this song for me and meant it. Will anyone? That's the promise I made for others. You can say that I yearn for one too.

"Like a rose, trampled on the ground. You took the fall and thought of me above all.." - Al
Ruth-Skunk || 5:55 pm