could you hear me?

Tuesday, May 03, 2005

i'm not me.

i guess i'm losing it.. too many things to be done. haiz.. i need to find back that part of me. i know busy is not the word to be used as an excuse. i'm so sorry. i hope everything will be alright. i hope to be forgiven. i know i'm still loved..

i hate myself sometimes. my music is gettin from bad to worse. i have to ask my sis to pitch for me. but i love the violin alot. although it hurts so much playing it. it's really ok. my brain juz got used to that pain electrical signal. numb i guess..

sometimes i wonder why sacrifice so much for a particular someone. with all the claim that i love everyone and stuff like that. i realise that i'm not perfect, in the sense, i'm still a bit biased.

so i returned to solitude once again. i guess getting away from the crowd is sort of nice. away from all the responsibility, as a friend, as a leader, as a follower. and i enjoyed the quiteness within me.

pe sux sometimes. keep straining my ankle.. crap. and my stupid nose. and throat. and hearing. shit. i'm in deep trouble.

i dun care wat the result is. i really dun care..
Ruth-Skunk || 10:12 pm