could you hear me?

Sunday, August 14, 2005

mummy's still ill..

Haiz.. Why must we always learn things the hard way. That when you lose something then will you feel its importance. I've lost it twice, now I'm afraid. My life is filled with more 'thank you's and 'love ya's.. I want them to know that this blurry girl who doesnt really show much concern still loves them.

My mum's still down with diarrhoea and cough and nausea after meals. Haiz. Been to that stupid doc on my blacklist twice and it didnt cure her much. Only the fever went down. Arghz~ She should have listened to me to go to "Joys" instead of "Lifeline". Stupid doc. -.- Almost went to the hospital today. Pray that she will really get well soon. Haiz.. =(

Young kids are really innocent. They just have fun with each other even though they don't know each other. As long as they have the same interest. And the surrounding doesnt even bother them much. They don't care about how the onlookers stare at them. They just be themselves. How I wish we were all like them. The innocence of a child. But it'll be a noisy world then, wont it? Lol! But hey, no discrimination nor prejudice. Ahh.. Peaceful. =)

Perhaps all the things I've done is deemed little in your eyes. But I have a responsibility to uphold. That is to be a good friend. I'll be one. The best one I can ever be. With all my efforts. No matter what I'll recieve. That's my way of life. =)

Don't ask me why I give so much. Don't ask me why I do so much. I have no reasons to give. Cause I believe in you, just as much as I believe in Him. Even though I dare not say that my faith for Him is great, but I dare say that it'll never change. Just as I never change my faith in you. =)

I have my principles.. I stick to them as much as I could. So when I got stubborn on something, do forgive me. Responsibility. I learnt them the hard way. I hope others wont.

Somehow, I lost the mood for worship today in church. Lol! Dunno why also. Ah.. Perhaps the mood wasnt right. It just isnt the mood I like it to be. I'm sure it could be better. When will that time come?

Oh God, I'm not sure of my abilities. But I sincerely wanna serve. But I'm sure I'll not be able to make it with my mediocre know-hows. But still. I felt that I could sing to Him so much better when I'm alone than when I'm in church. Perhaps it's the difference in music. And atmosphere. And mood. But I'm just glad. Just to be able to sing to Him. Praises or worship. It's all that I want to do. =)


Ruth-Skunk || 10:03 pm