could you hear me?

Thursday, August 04, 2005

out of place..

Yea, yea.. Feeling really weird. Haiz. One week has just passed without my mum and sis. It's so damn odd. So quiet at home. Perhaps this is what might be when I grow up and live on my own. Haiz.

Juz realised that my mood swing is getting worse. It doesnt affect by the day now. It comes and go by hours! Darn.. I need to see a psychologist.

I don't mean to portray it. Haiz.. Sometimes I can't control myself too. Or rather, since when I had controlled myself? Sheez.. Did I seem like a two-faced? I felt a bit like that too for a moment in time. This is sooo bad.. "Control! Control!"

Xueli had been really nice. Hahaz. Actually everyone else too. =) I'm just feeling out of place myself.

Somehow, the people I wanna see isnt there, and people I dun want to is always there. I'm not saying that the people I dun wanna see are bad people or some sort. But I just dont wanna be bothered.

Sometimes silent company is better than noisy company. =) It might help even more. Cause at times, all someone need is company and a listening ear. No matter you give good advice or not, they just need people to be around them. It's the comfort that you give that matters, not how much you can express yourself. =)
Ruth-Skunk || 11:46 pm