could you hear me?
Saturday, February 25, 2006
problems
Ok.. Havent seem to be ranting here for a long while. Haha.. Not the usual me eh? Hmm.. I dont know.. For the past week I've been ranting to God. Haha. That includes everything, work, tiredness, life, family, friends.. Everything. And after that I always conclude that after telling Him all these stuff, there's no need to tell anyone else. Cause He'll always settle it for me. =)
But anyway let me sum up the negative health impact I've suffered..
1) skin problem- it's like never ending la. kept bleeding, and this colourless pus kept coming out. hurts when it comes into contact with soap.. cream no more ler. mum's cream doesnt work. and i think it just got worse. hmm.. and yea, got a bit of rashes too on my arms. and my leg's skin is kinda dry. and i scratched it. so got some scratches there. oops..
2) knuckles hurt - don't know why. prolly due to carrying too much heavy stuff with the hand for too long. esp on my left thumb. and it felt swollen. dont think it is but not too sure.. seemed bigger. haha..
3) lost strength in the fingers - yes prolly the same reason as my knuckles. like when i tried to get up just now when i was seated down on the floor during cell, i landed back on my bum again. like totally no strength. bahz. -.-
4) got more sensitive to the smell of smoke- gonna die of lung cancer sooner or later. lol! like i can smell it some metres away. hmm. held my breath lor, what to do..
5) shorter lung space (less breath)
6) bled under the nails of the toes - eh.. dont think anyone know this yet but Rah. actually quite long already. and it had clotted. so yea.
7) the ankles - after an entire day of standing (like 7 hours minus half hour of rest) plus sometimes the filled train rides, i'll be dragging myself home. haha.
Lol! Prolly was in a daze.. Went to look for plasters for myself. Like taking a literal sense of stickin plasters on myself to hide the wounds. And my, my.. There's like a variety of plasters to choose from and 4 kinds just from Hansplast alone, with different quantity and pricing. I need lots of plasters. From God. =)
I think it was the veg that I ate at work. They cooked it with shrimps which I tried to avoid as best as I could. Hmm. Maybe next time I shall not take it. But it's very nice.. And there's no other veg available. I'm a rather veggie person. I love my greens. Haha.
Dear Heavenly Father. I dont know what I did wrong. I'm not sure if it was a dream, or I really did it when I am conscious. But still, I know it is wrong. I'm sorry. Please forgive my inability to stop myself. Please take away my old life. Help me to conquer my old self. I need You Father, to be with me. Every single moment. Never to leave me. Thank You so so much. Love You Father. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.
I cant remember what I wanna type. Haiz. STM at work. Haiz. Till nxt time. And I'm way passed my curfew.. =s
Ruth-Skunk || 1:10 am
