could you hear me?

Sunday, August 08, 2004

It's My Life! - Anger Management

dedicated to all those who share almost the same sentiments as i...

right right. have been trying to restrain it within me. the anguish, the frustration. well, sometimes i will juz persuade myself that nothing will happen, u know, like there's nothing wrong, it's juz 'it'. u get wat i mean. but when it gets overboard, thoughts like "why are u in my life?", "why am i here in the first place?" juz keeps running thru my mind. crapz.

i've dislike many pple like it before. i hate to be glued by somebody. i like to be free. i hate show-offs, especially if they are showcasin sth which has nothing to do with my life. if u wanna get a life, there are so many out there, why mine?

right right. so we're friends. fine, cool. but wait a sec, what kinda friend are u? when u bother pple and not carin bout what others are feelin? cant u juz look into my eyes? it says "shut ur crack up. i am not interested in ur life and u shall not be in mine." crap. i have a life, so far a rather nice one. i may have pple i dun like, fine, they dun bother me. wat are u? u're not my bestest friend or great buddies like iris, whee and tk, neither u're my sis, like faith. there is no point in tryin to get close to me. i have pple that i love, a pity u're not one of those.

great great, now u're not my goodest friend, neither u're someone i love, wat are u to me? i'm juz treatin that u're something which exist. in this life, in my life. well, i dun really treat u like a thorn in my flesh, but u're not an apple in my eyes either. can't u juz keep to urself? stop being an attention seeker. u dun deserve mine.

and yea, u may not be the brightest of them all, but i'm sure u have the sense that someone is not at all interested and someone does not like u. so why do u bother them? why do u bother me? fine fine, u can come to me all u like. but please, i dun give a damn about ur affairs outside. i'm juz concerned abt mine. thank you. and i dun need ur concern, i've got great friends who care in a better way then u.

nosey? u? haz.. yea sure. but that's a very weird phenomena. u dun have pinocchio's nose, it's not long or sth. but why do u like to poke it into so many pple's business? not as if u dun have enough to handle. why try to juggle so many stuffs when u only got one head and 2 hands? they will all crumble onto u. dun come to me to ask me to help save ur life. i tried, well it seemed like it didnt work. so, i'm incompetent. then dun come to me!

so what if i'm close to them? talkin to them doesn't change anything. juz like talkin to you to ask u to leave them alone wont change anything. if words can change anything, then everyone's god. please. *roll eyes*

and yea, stop those religious singin. it's not as if i like hearin them. u're not like faith, who can sing so much nicer and holier songs.(i'm juz comparing, faith, dun give that smile =P) right, i think u ought to know that i'm not a complete christian. so what if christ is in my life? it doesnt mean that we are one of a kind. no. i respect and pray to other gods too. that's what i call being a freethinker is. i'm not an atheist. i believe in god. yes so? do not over-influence me. do not under-estimate me. i'll turn to hell for that.

right right, i'm not gonna try to start WW3 or sth. i'm not gonna do anything for now. nope, since my hinting doesnt work. i shall try to give the silent treatment as much as i could. haz.. Cold War will start! liberty will win.

Ruth-Skunk || 3:15 pm