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Sunday, October 31, 2004

deceptions..

oh wellz.. yea, long time no blog. no need to breathe down my neck to ask me to blog lah. i will somehow. the days were ok. i supposed. juz went to pray again. manz. so sianz of that. my sis told me at the temple, "do u think we 2 are abit out of place? coz u wanna convert and i will be if nothing goes wrong." wellz. i feel a bit weird too. being there. dunno how to pray too. hahaz. i juz follow lah. it's not that i dun believe u see, it juz doesnt feel right. everything doesnt feel right. heck..

have been try to be be cheery this few weeks. well, since everyone is not cheery, one more gloomy person will not contribute to the gloom factor. so might as well go the opposite direction. think that i'm quite stubborn. always wanted things my way. oh wellz.. it's like i like to be different. if everyone is goin this direction, i'll go the other way. rebellious? maybe. but i juz like it that way. well.. not that i'm self-centered or anything. i dunno. it's juz myself bahz, my personality. are all geminians like this? hahaz..

oh.. juz acknowledge 2 new da jies. kimmy and meiqing. hahaz.. to think that qing said, "oh yah, i'm older than you!" when i called her da jie. so funny. actually, come to think of it, it's quite weird that they treat me like the leader in the pw grp. thought that younger pple should listen to the older pple. hahaz.. hmm, jean made me her "spouse". well, i couldnt break her heart and say no right. as in, i've always been the one who let pple do anything to me. class girls abit the ermz.. sometimes. yea.. wellz, we'll see lah.

whee, i couldnt believe that u talked to her! hahaz. that's so nice of u. once a welfare rep, always a welfare rep. <-- this applies to u too, sarah. =P

so now i've got like 1 ma, 1 shi jie, 1 da ge, 2 da jies, 1 "spouse"(<-- still considering =S) and 1 dear. hmm..

talkin abt respect, i still firmly believes that no matter how much u hate any pple who are older than u, at least give them some bit of respect. they have indeed, at least, more life experiences than u. well, at least that's some form of a respect for urself. everything that u do reflects ur own behaviour. i always believe that to gain respect from pple, respect them too. at least it worked for me..

wellz. think i'm drained. haha.. still got pw.. sux. everything's faked! surely MOE would have realised that. wat are they doin? manz.. brainless.. neh mind. clao's juz after OP. sucky.. hate to write chinese. =T watever..

"always put urself in other pple's shoes. if u feel tt it hurts u, it probably hurts the other person too.."
- Al

Ruth-Skunk || 9:26 pm