could you hear me?

Tuesday, May 24, 2005

sorry, i blew off my top..

really sorry.. i flared. i shouldnt i know. i couldnt help it. do i really looked scary. i'm really sorry. i wonder why i do that too. was scolding myself the entire time i was alone. was really sad over wat i did. i shouldnt. i know i shouldnt.. really really sorry..

it's a really right move. leave me alone when i'm angry. hahaz. opposite of when i'm cryin. cuz when i'm alone, and the sense of lost overcame me, i start to reflect. and i start to scold myself..

anger is indeed a scary weapon. will not use it unnecessary again. =(

ankle hurts like hell now. both. my bad ankle hurts more. my other ankle got hurt when i landed in a wrong position after hanging off the chin-up bars. guess i'm really dumb..

hols are coming.. somehow i welcome the rest. but then i dreaded it's arrival. cuz that would mean i have to go.. and to think i had said "no" some months ago.. i am really tired..

work. havent been catchin up. i need the time. no, i'm not gonna mug. i dun mug..

stupid fan. stupid me. i cant believe i'm that dumb.

why do i feel like vomitting or fainty everytime i cut myself. =s

jay chou's qilixiang album is not bad actually.

sleepy..

i actually played with a tiny wasp today in the class. hahaz. so cute. =p its wings are really powerful. can feel the wind on my skin. and i actually got a spider out of the classroom with my hands, before sarah could do anything to it. sth's wrong with me..

or izzt juz that i'm feeling different abt the world..

think abt last sept again. i think the channel 8 show has an effect on me..

haiz..


"i wish i could see you again. and feel you holdin my hands. and let me call "daddy" one more time.."
-Al
Ruth-Skunk || 11:26 pm