could you hear me?
Friday, June 24, 2005
every sort of emotions
Blahz. The whole night of heated words. Prolly it's the night, prolly it's the tiredness. Somehow, unneccessary fiery words were shot at each other. And yea, I have to help with the extinguishing of the inferno all around. Phew, luckily mum wasnt too heated up. And I wonder what makes up her patience (sometimes). Lol. My sis was smart enought to evade into the bathroom.
Glanced through some of the photos taken before everything had happened. Saw his photos again. A bit sad. Awkward too. Mum was beside me. For a moment there was juz silence. We have no idea what to say to each other. Got her stuff printed.
A little peace time before my mum came out with her death sentencing. She wants us to be all in bed by 12. (i wonder when that rule was put up.. hmm) So yea, siam-ed before she shortened the time to the sentence. Haha.
Was feeling better. Yepz. I hope. Though still a little empty deep down, but I was comforted enough to sleep well.
Supposed to go study with Sarah, but her sis refused her exit out of the house. And the weather today was perfect for a dazy laze. Didnt rain la.. Hmph. Played isketch with jie and her friend. Kinda rocky. Esp when everyone could guess what I drew. But my comp keeps hanging. Keeps interrupting. Lol. And couldnt score(like what chansey experienced the other time). Blahz. Heck anyway, know that I could guess can ler. =)
Fingers hurt. Haiz. "No more violin!" Until I'm healed. Seemed as if I'm never healed. Doesnt matter la. My skills are bad anyway. And I think I'll like to spare my sis some peace and quiet. Lol. Seemed like I'm always bothering her with my screechy playin. Oops.
Does it really matter that the photographer has to be in the photographs? Blahz. This qns had been in my mind since last night. Mum and my grandpa seemed angry at me for only taking photos of the scenery and buildings and not having my face taken. Manz. I'm cam-shy. Lol! Dun look nice anyway. =P But the sceneries are not bad mahz. Haiz.
Roamed through the websites again. Read some of the stuff. And cried. Felt really touched at some of the stuff I read. And funny thoughts came by again. Haiz.
Personality Disorder Test
Disorder / RatingParanoid: Low
Schizoid: Low
Schizotypal: High
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: Moderate
Histrionic: Moderate
Narcissistic: Low
Avoidant: Low
Dependent: Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive: High
URL of the test:
http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mv URL for more info:
http://www.4degreez.com/disorder/index.htmlSo I have mood instability, am an attention seeker and am dependent on others, and I think really eccentric, and am a perfectionist. Lol! Please.. Maybe the mood instability, dependence and the (uh-hm) attention seeking part is a wee bit true but hey, I dun have eccentric thoughts, do I? And since when I'm a perfectionist when I'm like heck caring most of the stuff? Lol! *shrugz*
If I Knew
If I knew it would be the last time
that I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly
and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.
If I knew it would be the last time
that I see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss
and call you back for one more.
If I knew this would be the last time
I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would video tape each action and word,
so I could play them back day after day.
If I knew it would be the last time,
I could spare an extra minute or two
to stop and say "I love you,"
instead of assuming you would KNOW I do.
If I knew it would be the last time,
I would be there to share your day,
well, I'm sure you'll have so many more,
so I can let just this one slip away.
For surely there's always tomorrow
to make up for an oversight,
and we always get a second chance
to make everything right.
There will always be another day
to say our "I love you's",
and certainly there's another chance
to say our "Anything I can do's?"
But just in case I might be wrong,
and today is all I get,
I'd like to say how much I love you
and I hope we never forget.
Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,
young or old alike,
and today may be the last chance
you get to hold your loved one tight.
So if tomorrow, why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes,
you'll surely regret the day
that you didn't take that extra time
for a smile, a hug, or a kiss
and you were too busy to grant someone,
what turned out to be their one last wish.
So hold your loved ones close today,
whisper in their ear,
tell them how much you love them
and that you'll always hold them dear.
Take time to say "I'm sorry", "please forgive me",
"thank you" or "it's okay".
And if tomorrow never comes,
you'll have no regrets about today.
-Author Unknown
And all I have to say is "Thank you" for those who had been there for me. And "Thank you" too to those who I knew, cause in one way or another, you have added colour to my life. =)
Ruth-Skunk || 8:58 pm
