could you hear me?

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

Big mess.

somethings juz happened so unexpectedly. how i wish i have never been on that trip. broke down at the airport when news came. actually i was already suspicious when i saw my granddad at the airport and that everyone wore blue/black and mum didnt have any jewellary on. asked mum about grandma when she suggested eating at the airport. she changed the topic. so i guessed my way through but i waited for them to tell me directly. and when they did at the dinner table i juz cried. and everything's over. i never get to attend anything. never get to do anything for her.

dreamt of her last night. hugged her in my dreams. it felt real. i wanna see her again.

big mess, hell yeah. and i'm stuck again. buddhism and christianity. when can i ever find peace? Oh Lord help me..

sad..
Ruth-Skunk || 11:12 pm