could you hear me?
Monday, October 24, 2005
arghz.. sucks..
Blehx blehx blehx.. Geez.. Such a failure.. Blah! Why did I allow myself to get into such a situation? Arghz.. -.-
"One Way" is one song that is NOT in my vocal range and ability ok.. Blah! I've tried a gazillion times at home already. Cannot means CANNOT mah... Blah! So screwed up lah. -_- "Still" also.. *smacks face* Screwed screwed screwed..
Unless they change the chord.. Nah.. So mafan. Ah heck lah. DON'T SING! YES!
Wahahaz.. I'm going crazy.. -.-"
I sounded funky over the mike? Ohmygosh. I have never tried singing with the mike for a very long time. Wouldn't know how my voice changed. But then.. FUNKY?!?! -.- Hmm...
Char is an alto. =D Actually mezzo-sop. But her low notes not bad. How I know? Cause she can scream the last note of the 1st and 2nd verses out with her throat voice. And I CAN'T..
Sorry for all the caps.. I'm just exasperated with myself. =S
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I know everyone feels lonely. You too right? I can see that. You don't need to hide it with a strong front. Don't worry. I'll be here if you ever need someone to talk to. Maybe you and I are similar. I don't know. For now, I don't know.
And if I ever hurt you in someways, I'm really sorry. And though I know that friends don't bear grudges, I'm not sure. But still, to be on the safe side, I just wanna say, I'm sorry for all the mistakes I've made.
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I'm contradicting myself right? I know I always do. The escapes and the longings. Love and hate being alone. =(
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I want to do a lot of things after As. But I'm not sure if I'll have the mood to do so. =( Especially after doing all the papers. Maybe I'll breakdown after all those? Maybe I'll be happy? I don't know. What is my purpose on earth? Is mugging all that we have to do? Sha's entry some time ago hit me hard. Why are we all mugging so hard believing that this will lead us to a good life when someone else our age is already earning big bucks somewhere doing something he/she loves? Although this kind of people are rare, but studying hard also may not provide a higher chance of a better quality life.
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Spoken to God last night. =) He pointed out why the Korea trip instead of the class chalet. Yea it's all part of His plan mah. Why am I so against it? -.- Ah. Ok, it's cause I've not been spending enough quality time with my family. Right. Fine. =T And perhaps it's also quite a suitable exit for me, for someone who don't really love crowds, and big groups of people, I think that it's a good escape from the class chalet. Though I would really love night cycling! =T Ah well.. Shall go cycling some other time then. At ECP or something.
"And here I am so alone and there's nothing in this world I could do.."
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Oh study camp later. Wahahaz.. Shit, I've not packed yet!
I will testify to love.. =)
Ruth-Skunk || 11:34 am
