could you hear me?

Sunday, September 05, 2004

cheated.. but i thank you..

please.. do not play with my feelings.. i hate to hurt pple.. it's sth which i regretted and learnt from when i was young.. i'll feel that i've not done enough for everyone.. i'll feel that i've not done my part.. i care really.. i dun wan pple to feel angry, or sad.. but sometimes when i did sth wrong, i wouldn't know.. i'll try to make up for it.. but dun use this on me please.. dun use this weakness on me.. u can say that i'm over sensitive.. but the fact is i cared for your feelings.. i care how pple will react.. i dun wan to spoil their day, i hate that to happen.. but dun play with my feelings.. it hurts.. alot.. =(

i've learnt from my mistakes.. i vowed not to repeat them again.. i hated myself for being who i use to be.. some insensitive brat.. i've grown, i recognize my faults, i'll try to overcome them.. i hate insensitive pple(eg. YOU2 in my previous entry).. i felt that we should treat everyone with open hearts, not with mere fake friendship and use friends juz because they have a value like helpin u with work/studies etc... fakos.. i wish they dun exist.. but because of their existence, i come to be more aware of myself.. should i thank them or wat? haiz..

guess life is about growin up and seeing things which u never thought u'ld see.. i'll still strive to be as less bias as i can.. i dun wanna see pple thru coloured lens.. it's not good.. i prefer pple who are who they are, even though i may not be.. i'll try to be in everyone's shoes as much as i can.. i'll try to judge impartially.. i'll never be the perfect friend but i'll try to be the best one i can.. i may not be that caring, i may be cold.. but i juz wan everyone to know, i'll always be there for you, for those who left deep imprints in my heart. i thank all those who i had known.. you made me who i am.. i'll never be what u see now without the quarrels and partings.. i'm really grateful for the nice memories we had.. and of course all the bad ones.. i learnt alot.. thank you..



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