could you hear me?

Saturday, November 13, 2004

i cant take the time till i next see u smile..

had a long day today. manz dun think i've ever been this tired. hahaz. k lah, i wasnt that tired lah. sleepy probably. hmm.

woke up abit later than i wanted to. but nevermind. i realised that i could take a shorter route to kovan. hahaz. bus to sengkang then mrt. takes abt 35 mins, excludin waitin time. better than takin one whole mrt trip to there. yay. reached there at ard 8:25 am. cool. early for the first time since dunno when. hahaz. was usually late yea. =P and then it started the waitin for the pple.

called qing-jie 3 times before she finally msged me back. seemed that she juz left her hse. wow. nice. called ddr's hse at 8:30. he's still there! wat the @#$%. arghz. and i had the insanity to ask if he wanted me to wait for him. crap sia. wrong move. qing-jie came at 8:45. accordin to her, we could still make it in time. wateva lah. promised pple ler cannot go back wan. so wait lor. i estimated that he needed at least an hour to arrive. i was right. hahaz.

we walked ard in the mean time. talked abit. cool. 2 "boring" pple. hahaz. jkjk. we were complainin abt ddr most of the time. joked abt his walkin style. hahaz. listened to radio.

then he came at 9:30. got out and took bus. hahaz. not bad, it came after juz waitin for a while. got down at some pri sch. qing realised that it's her neighbourhood! hahaz. said she could have juz walked over. my my. so sry bout that. haiz. made her travel and wait for nothing. haiz. =(

walked back to get to the child care centre. quite easy to find. hahaz. reached there and found that everyone picked the indoor jobs. left with the gardening. fine. the 3 of us started pickin weeds. after a while they needed ddr for the cleanin of the fans. so he went in. nvm. me and qing juz talked lor. tried to pick up as much weeds as possible. but yea lah, didnt pick all of them lah. the small ones tires me. hahaz. =P

oh qing-jie! hmm.. my conditions right, dun tell anyone bout it huh. no one knows it except my direct family members. haiz. anyway it's not very serious. it's containable. hahaz. yea. talkin bout this, while doin the garden, i realised that the cut i made on my arm some time ago left a scar there. hahaz. i never knew that a cut could do such stuff. cool. anyway it's not very noticeable. haz.. i'm gettin sadistic. sheez.. =T

took a break while gardening. sat at the swing with qing. hahaz. it was nice. the breeze. nice. and we swung too hard. the whole thing moved. hahaz. ok, we got down and went back to business again. got tired of the job. decided to end it at ard 12. she sat at the swing with a friend. chatted for awhile. walked to the front porch. realised that there's some dead leaves. the urge to sweep them up came. hahaz. went ahead with it. =P came back to find that they're still swinging. went into the hse. got jingyi to pass the puzzle to dear. haiz. we didnt even speak much today. wat's wrong with me.

sat/stood at the side door alone most of the time. think i caught the anti-socialness from qing-jie. hahaz. i used to be anti-social myself too. nvm.. think maybe i still am. only speak to those whom i knew. shy? hmm.. probably lah. but i enjoy communications. think it's a nice way to build up relationships. hmm.

after that went to qing's hse. sat there. almost slept. hahaz. she kept offerin me food. whoa.. sry, dun like choco or nuts. thankz. hahaz. waited an hour for her to get ready. and also my mum's call. best manz. oh. i forgot that i'm not supposed to visit anyone's house. aiyah, heck lah. i dun even know wat's my religion now. crap. mum called to say that she forgot abt me. thanks mum. it was well appreciated. *roll eyes* thought she had finished with her stuff but it turned out that she was abt to start with it. she asked me to eat by myself. fine..

went to heartland mall. thanks jie for the way! hahaz. wouldnt be able to settle down that fast without u. =) decided to eat at kfc. wow. ate so much fastfood this week. shit. think i'm gettin fat. hahaz. goin joggin tmr morn. ate for half an hour. so bloated. geez. no one to talk to. sianz. nvm. took the train down to bishan to meet mum and aunt. k lah, i'm earlier again. nice. waited for a while. almost fell asleep standin there waitin. hahaz. they said i looked real tired. duh! try spendin 2 hrs crouching down juz to pull weeds. haiz. nehmind. burnt abit of leg and back muscles. increased stamina too. hahaz. went to mos to eat again! wat the. felt like pukin after that. swear that i'll never eat this much fastfood ever again! hahz.. talked abit. aunt left after we're done with eating.

walked ard best denki with mum. looked for a decent radio. found 1. looks cute and cool. got it tested out by this unwilling salesman. face so black liddat. crap lah, we might as well dun want it tested out. nvm. walked ard basement to buy food for our dinner. went home after that. tested out the radio. nice. so loud. hahaz. mum loved it. set the channels for the tuner. fun to impart her my hi-fi skills. hahaz.

sis called home at ard 7++. she and her bf's bags were stolen coz they left them at the stadium steps. there were lots of valuables in there! hps, wallets, mp3 player, lecture notes, notebooks, keys, cards. haiz. really pity her. budden, maybe abit dumb to do that. but we usually do that and no one will steal. but i guess she let her guards down. haiz. poor thing. if it were me i'ld have broken down. but then again, i won't dare to do that. i'm scared of losin things. hmm.. =T

stupid bro. manz. he is really brainless. he laughed at it. how can i have such a bro? i mean, doesnt he have any compassion? laughed at my sis when she came back. now, who feels like killing him? arghz.. dumb, idiotic, moronic, senseless, preposterous, imbecile, harebrained, pedomorphic, puerile, walkin meatbag. >=(

haiz.. izzt becoz of me? that i broke the rule, that's why my family hadta suffer for it? why? u might be thinkin "stop blamin urself" right now. well, anyone who's close enough will know: u can hurt me all u like, juz leave my loved ones alone. think God got the hint. so he punished my family. why? get me if u want. not them.

had this thought while shoppin with my mum. "felt like i'm spendin my last few moments with all my loved ones." geez. i dunno. how come i keep thinkin abt death. hahaz. goin crazy soon. had heartburns again. aiyah. not surprising ler. haiz..

realised that i dun look for things myself. i wait for them to come and find me. aye. sounds like i dun have any initiative yea? maybe. realised that i'm becoming like my dad more and more each day. indeed i have more of his genes as in personality-wise. realised that i look at things his way. cool. no wonder we cliqued so well. no wonder he loved me so much. i'm like his duplicate. hahaz.. love ya dad! =)

dun feel like typin ler.. anyway, mum wants me to go sleep early tonight. hahaz. she xin1 tong4 me ler. =P feels bad to make her feel this way everytime. *guilty* and it's not my fault. hahaz..


"now that ur rose is in bloom, a light hits the gloom on the grey."
- Al

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