could you hear me?

Thursday, November 11, 2004

thoughts..love..pain..

had a long day ytd. choir. pretty shitified by it. even though jeanette said that it was ok in her blog. it seemed the other way to me. well, that's coz we are still on different sides. haiz. nvm bout that. the guys screwed up badly. "wat the hell were they doin durin sectionals?!?!" manz. the girls were definitely angry abt them durin combine. maybe with the exceptions of a few. we went out of the room to combine ourselves. went back in after 15 mins. combined abit. still got some mistakes. didnt finish the set piece. haiz. went back to hall to be the first to perform. in front of TPJ, MJ still nehmind.. VJ is there lor. shit sia. didnt dare look at mr nelson kwei. he was pissed from the day before with his sec school. so we juz sang lah. the end part of the piece we didnt really follow mark. coz abit nerve wrecked ler. heck.

TPJ saved us? probably. or it's juz nelson himself who liked us so much. wellz, they got booted out of the room. they were really bad lah. worse then us. couldnt hear their altos. then their chords, needless to say, died-ed. eleana remarked "they very minor right?" hahaz. right, stop jokin bout them. god knows wat happened to them lah.

VJ was whoa. dun wanna say ler. very good lah. everything's there. even got some interpretation lor. crapz. later found out that they cheated. coz they got the scores and learnt it some days ago. wat if nelson knows abt it? hahaz.. dun wan to get them into trouble lah. we're not so mean k.

then after we were released, the "secret meetin" was dumb lah. nad-ma was right. not neccessary to say it then. we've got next pract mahz. all was crap lah. tryin to make us think that we are good. hello? we know our standard k. heck. then stupid hongky. wanna haolian in front of VJ. did some stupid cheer. crap lah. they were so unimpressed anyway. me, nad-ma and by-then-very-pissed-off whee didnt join in. we juz walked off after they did their thing.

wanna go somewhere after choir. called home to cancel dinner. no one seemed in the mood to go anywhere. called da ge loh. luckily she's free. hahaz. another wednesday date again. yepz. reached J8 earlier than her. accompanied joe ard. saw mel and my pri 2 classmate, winnie! wow. couldnt recognize her. hahaz. found that we went completely different ways. she looked the cultural type of person while i looked the sporty type. but she joined touch rugby and me, choir. we talked for a while. how we have been goin on with our life. then da ge called. so i went off.

had LJS with her. it was nice. sittin down to eat and talk together. had a little "argument" over the change as usual. right right. it's juz me. and her. hahaz. the usual. u know, it's not neccessary to be so clear over money matters with each other, esp when we're friends. sarah gave up tryin to give me the change the other time. hahaz. and my stupid theory. always works. but dear tried to prove it wrong. hahaz. it does make sense yea. =P

it's funny how things turn up sometimes. grudges can be put down. misunderstandings can be sorted out. provided that u talk it out that is. *hint* *hint* i'm no longer the bridge btw u 2. i dunno how that is. in the first place i dun even know abt ur history. haiz. how would i know that it is this complicated. i hope u 2 are still ok. hmm. maybe things would have been easier if i didnt probe into it huh. haiz.

dear said that i looked unhappy abt the nearing of the hols. well, i am. haiz. i juz wanna be ard with friends, with da ge, with dear. haiz..

couldnt turn up for the xmas party. will be at hongkong with family. mum wanna take a break. was supposed to be korea. but too cold. i cant stand cold. so hongkong lorz. can take the chance to practice my cantonese there too. anyone wan me to get anything?

was readin this mail from this guy named James Lau. anybody knows him? anyway, picked this sentence from his mail. nice. "If you spend time with a person then that is as much an expression of love as what you can do for them." felt that it's quite true. the willingness to spend something as precious as time on someone. sometimes, i have difficulty expressin some of my feelings to some pple. the best thing i can do is be with them and make their day if possible. time, is all i have. love is all i can give. haiz.

pain. yea had bouts of them. haiz. had cramps during cdp. didnt show much right? hide so well. hahaz. had numerous scratches here and there. wonder where i got them from. rashes comin back. what did i eat? so weird. ankle hurts. esp when the weather turns cold. rheumatism? haiz. weak foot. tripped once some days ago. wat the.

really need a good workout someday. dear, did u forget our promise? our holiday workout? hope u didnt. haiz.

had frequent chats with qing-jie. haz. u're not dull definitely. esp if u can get me goin typin for so long. hope whee is not that pissed off. put it down, relax. sometimes things are meant to turn up this way. dun worry k? and dun be jealous too. =P hey sha. nice to see u. hahaz. someday i'll like to hear ur views of MCPs. u might wanna know why i dun like guys too. *oh btw, to all viewin this blog. pls dun give this blog's url away. or link it to ur blogs. i prefer to restrict it to a small grp of readers. if things dun turn up fine, i'll change the url like wat sha did.* chans. hmm. getting bored of me? haz. wonder if tk is readin this. show some signs that u are? (i've got a chatterbox.) hope life is well for u. we havent been contactin each other much. hmm.. still wanna go out? faith ah. work hard ah. Os 1 more day only. really hope u can come AJ. haiz. da ge. wed dates.. hahaz. will be chattin then. dear. know that u're busy still. missed u anyway, everyday. =)

PS: btw, do inform me of any cca performances u guys are havin yea? and choir's got one nxt year. =)


"have u seen my childhood? no one understands me."
- Al

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