could you hear me?
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
broke.. lol
Alright.. I'm officially announcing that I'm broke. Lol. Last night's dinner at Cartel was a bomb. Hmm.. But it's alright. Haha. The time spent was not bad.. Not bad at all. And Tk said she'll blog abt it. Hmm.. Where's the post?? Lol!
Ok la.. Not that broke. Am still surviving. Lol. Anyone going out with me?? Haiz. I'm like got lots of programs but not going liddat. Very sad sia..
Hmm..
Felt kinda sad again. I guess it's the same kind of sadness whenever a chapter of my life ended. Why cant we just stick to the same group of people for the rest of our lives? Why must we encounter changes? I guess it's to make us see different kinds of people and how to manage them. And ourselves of course. Grow and change. Encounter and learn. To be a better person. =)
My playing sucks. My pitching sucks. My tuning sucks. Everything about me sucks. Arghz.. Fingers got bubbles.
Somehow I felt that I'm not quite the same anymore. The assurance of "Don't worry, I'm still the same old me" to Xie somehow rang past my head. I realised that I'm not the same old me. That old me had died some time ago. This is a new me. Haiz.. I think she felt it too. How bout you Tk?
I think I'm too used of being taken care of nowadays. Like in church and stuff, I always have Jie and Rah to take care of me. I'm like the youngest amongst us three so I'm like the "kid" in the group. Then with Xie and Tk, I'm abit confused. I'm the middle there and it's like not here nor there. The crazy role is taken up by Tk cause she's always crazy. And being older than Xie I'm supposed to lead her. So yea. Felt a bit weird la.
Oiman asked me if I'm a christian cause she noticed that I've been listening to Gospel. Yea. Talked to her a lil about it..
The issue of death had been brought up quite often these few days. And on parents and stuff. Haiz. Ok. Stop thinking about it. I'm like sinking into another bout of depression..
No mood to think about anything. Haiz. Felt like crying.. =(
And all to You God for all You are to me..
There is nothing like Your love..
Rainy days makes me happy, makes me sad..
Ruth-Skunk || 4:12 pm
