could you hear me?

Friday, November 11, 2005

halfway through a challenge..to freedom =)

Ahh.. Finally.. 5 papers down, 5 more to go. Heh.. =) I think I sorta mess all of them up. Though I think maths is ok bah. Paper 2 isnt though. Practiced too much math, neglected the other subjects. Crap..

Jie's been really stressed up. Haiz.. Don't know how to console her.. Kept repeating my words.. Haiz. How I wish I could be able to express myself better.

Just felt useless sometimes. Utter useless. -.-

Killed a cockroach on the monday and tuesday night each. When I was all stressed up and stuff. Now I've got the courage to clear up the carcass myself. Cause my sis don't dare to. Ha. Hmm..

He is indeed a great source of peace. Though I know that I may not make it for my papers, He's always assuring me that all will be well, as according to His will. Jie was right. I should listen to Him instead. Havent been reading my bible. Jie said He communicates with us through the Word. Haiz. Should have read up more. Pray before reading, and it really gives me the answer. =)

Didnt get to have my night prayers for the past two nights. I just propped into bed and to lala land in an instant. Aiyo.. And this morning, I couldnt pray properly. I don't know why. I wanted to. "My spirit is strong but my flesh is weak." Crap lah.

For You, my soul sings.. I am not alone anymore. He sent angels to look after me. =) And the angels are constantly guiding me to Him, reminding me that He's always around. I long to get closer to Him..

"How my soul longs for You. Longs to worship You forever."

Jay's song, 夜曲. I love the chorus.. Trying to memorise it. And the rap. =P

为你弹奏萧邦的夜曲 纪念我死去的爱情
跟夜风一样的声音 心碎的很好听
手在键盘敲很轻 我给的思念很小心 你埋葬的地方叫幽冥

为你弹奏萧邦的夜曲 纪念我死去的爱情
而我为你隐姓埋名 在月光下弹琴
对你心跳的感应 还是如此温热亲近 怀念你那鲜红的唇印

It's supposed to be a sad song. Dunno why make it into a rap. Lol.

Music is like a prayer.. =)

I've learnt to be positive.. After all this while. Ah.. Call me slow or anything. Finally knows what Naruto feels in his anime. =) Tired of crying and decides to be positive.. 哭了也没人看... 哭来干嘛？哭了也没人懂... 哭来干嘛？But it's ok to cry lah. If you're sad, just cry. It's alright. Better out then in, they say. =)

Lay my every burden down at the foot of the cross.. =)

我不怕岁月无情的折磨，一身爱你不回头。我不怕世界笑我太执著，只要你懂我的梦。
真爱最难受，好梦不停留。又有谁会记得我？已把沉默当结果，我在默默为爱情守候。
用尽千方让他走，我在默默为爱情守候。
Ruth-Skunk || 10:03 pm