could you hear me?

Sunday, March 12, 2006

weary and broken-hearted..

I hurt my heart trying to love.. Haiz.. I don't know.. I'm just very sad.. It's this lingering sadness. I don't even know why. At least not the exact reason. But I know what I'm sad about.. It's so hard..

So I supposed we now see each other in a clearer light after this.. I don't care anymore.. But the more I say that the more I can't. I love you too much to not care..

It's not my nature to hurt people.. I think it hurts me more than anyone else.. Can anyone see this gash of wound bleeding? And the tears only made it more painful..

Sometimes it felt as if you understand. Sometimes it just doesnt.
Sometimes it felt as if you read my mind. Other times, it's just my own imagination.
Sometimes it felt as if you really love me. Sometimes you just hurt me..
But it's ok. We're all human..
I understand.
Cause I think I hurt you too at times.
And I havent been a perfect friend.
And half the time I'm dreaming on my own.
Perhaps I've been thinking too much.
Thinking too hard..
Head hurts..
Heart hurts..
My soul is weary..

I need a hug..

Father, please wrap me up in Your wings of comfort.. If not please take me home with You.. But I know You wont.. Cause I'm not yet worthy.. Not just yet.. "Ask and you will receive. Seek and you will find." Father I ask that You'll take this pain and sadness away from me. Father I ask that You will fill me with the joy You had filled me with before. Father I seek in Your arms of shelter.. Let me have peace and happiness, Father.. I pray, in Jesus name. Amen.

Broken heart. Broken life.. Take them all Father..
Ruth-Skunk || 10:32 am