could you hear me?

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

weak..

I'm too good to my kids.. Threats don't work now. I really don't feel like punishing them. I don't know. Breaking down in front of them is dumb. As if it'll change anything. It only shows my weakness. Don't be surprised if I land up in IMH.

I'm weak.. So weak. Ever since that day. I've changed. No longer strong enough. My life went down the day my pillar of strength has fallen. Am learning to rely on this new one.

Feeling stressed up now. Just felt like shutting up now. I don't wanna stay here anymore. Father, when will that day be? Tucking me in to sleep every night is cool but it's only a short term relief.

Shit. I just keep crying. Father, can You wipe my tears away for me?
Ruth-Skunk || 7:03 pm